Thought aloud

Yes whether we ’? Not simply under impact different "production is" and genuinely and honestly. Here is putting pace on heart of, to answer themselves without who and bluster from: "Becomes whether I ’?"
Not sitting before monіtorom, trampling on nesuraznye smekhunchiki on that of crassly video, not time of over people, but here is kind. Openly?
I fear to ask themselves such question. I not will be able here is so undressing before a its essence and watch on the, that there is on fact. Truth scares and boring in such despondency.
The truth will is simple and bitter in: We emotional people with disabilities.
On simpler concert, on United States city and the great crashing "Day Navy", I watched for people with hand, as if scholar studies reaction individuals on a certain the stimulus. As and most normal people, I tried to share all on categories (that for once infamous habit?) And here is that ‘: The first were drunk, and this was not sincere joy of the. Alkoloidnoe joy of the.
The second category — parents, strange such joy of the. Willy-nilly, I even not understood, was whether this at all gladness.
Old men, already in force age, not will Fuehrer a tumultuous self, it and understandable.
And that same remained?
And remained simple conclusion, which already dared voice.
When I began go into overdrive these terrifying fact, then saw two girls years 5—6.
As if two solar, like, a bunny they havasu before was and brought a joy eye volatile and genuine gladness.
I could would tears too from of happiness and rampant joy, but. I such same "disabled person", and only keep smiled at on these merry kids’dances and contortions each before other. But they saw! Saw low-key his smile, laughed and happily fled to adult. To "members--the handicapped." Here is they jump around, gauche it is To're rubbing fingers in machine "03", and laughing something say their expectant. With conscious glance, as if ushat ice water.
I edges sat in machine and suddenly caught themselves on desire 15. Long already'm done with this cut down and am not expected to return, but desire to so clear seared the brain, that I slightly not uh, I bumd it a cigarette have one of pyanenkikh "invalids."
Tomorrow I will assume home, I spit... on all rules, and stuck stop be "the invalid." After all I have homes, on apartment, every day jump around three solar, like, a bunny.

I know about death more many.
“Why? ” — ask you, —“ You that, fought? ”
— No, — honestly answer I.
“A can, you simply're lying? ”
— No.
The most as the optimists ideas successive in head will wrong. I'm saving, more accurately have been arguing.
I saw death in very many the eyes of. Zatukhayuschie targeted pupils drug users – him would still. But has woken up, and will tell, that wants to live. And here is me on him, as and on the alky spat.
Violent?
When the captain my broken corpses from a mangled machines, in their eyes still is reflected the sky. But I simply I ascertain and'm leaving.
Indifference?
Drunk mother gives two pills a five-year daughter with words: “Eady already sleep! This simply does your, soon will pass. ” She wanted to continue feast can be. Later six hours I I ascertain. Appendix which moved in peritoneum not left a chance. I want to punch this the creature with the entire dope in propituyu yo 'face. — …
Zloba?
Recent podvzdokhi a present-day old and day, or eyes, staring up 1912 say about its latest an hour "existence. She already sees not its dusty, little apartment. Otmuchalas.
the pity that's?
Sometimes simply want all forget and forgive. But collusion whether I from this better? Say, that I have very high emotional threshold, so ‘. I look in faces people and understand, that and their eye involves the povoloka death.
What same outcome I wanted to communicate? That I wanted to say? Perhaps, most important: Nurture their home and close, listen to their, help, develop. After all could erupt into moment, when no one of them not will near, and words, that so will become are important after the funeral, you will to speak in tombstone used. Regret from what you not said this under life, will thrashed and force your soul.
Love, help, say, listen to.
With respect, ya

Is it hard appeal to person, which not looks in eyes. Seemed would: That here such a? Ah, big deal, not looks in eyes, ah on shoes looks, on a neck, in mobile. Here is only I always feel themselves news, when there is no of visual contact. All simply: Not like it or with me to speak, beer to drink, pulling my leg? So not see me in eyes. Then again crops up question: Why?
No one not ” Nor do, how many passers-by look in eyes? Answer: Units of.
Ah and those who looks, already look as something abnormally. I.e., the average image modern human — is the who not looks in eyes. So why same we so fear raise glance?
When me someone says, that he alone in balustrade, want laugh. Is clear want it now, that alone! It is difficult be with someone, when you litsezreesh only shoes, mobile and dirty little asphalt. But most a sad, that if such man all same would raise glance, then he with in such same solo player to handle alone.
So to what I this all set them off?

When man stupid or simply a bit "retards." There is no, retards he clearly not "a bit", a bit — this "are slow", and here is "thwarted" — enough many! Ah yes and jester with them, with these notions. I about other. So here is not times was conceived over so concept, as "balls in anybody lacks." Indeed do, contrary — never before not was conceived; ancestors so talked — from centuries; surrounding, yes whom only not decisional laziness, — all pro these’balls recall the. Even Pereinachivayut phrase. This when quite someone mad are getting away. Nourished German, balls for’much for stopping by. Stupor in the consciousness of. Here is after all poor, poor chap, this stupor catches. And until this, DOCG level, looking on him, as times pro shortages these round hyphenated invoked. Then as same so? Like, and little their was, and here suddenly swish — and began to's heads on each other. Seats them little, that whether, urgently became.
Here is pro place I and thought suddenly. Yes not immediately optimistically began. Some time their moving my, rebuilt this thing their and so, and the whyfors, to, means, in taint then not enter. And with critiques alike relevant lessons handled. And thought. Ing. Is a clever I, truth? And here the textbook physics on eyes enclosed. And watch I HTML are axiom space. Type, balloon — this prepared today subject, which accounts for the in this really. Yes here is modicum vacuum! — but space what something specific place. Represent? Goes, ancestors not are right in fundamentally! Or physics not rights? Who knows. But according to science this goes — than more region Mikhail Dorofeev in our the minds, those stronger they brains made there supersede. Ah, if they there were even, in a vacuum this. In sense, which a capacity for thought are. Brains of course. And hence should conclusion: Than more in anybody brain drain, those mnshe in it same balls.
But only, I you I beg, not worth immediately on perusal tilting in ambitions. In sense, head about wall. I understand, they. Tsk,. Balls of course. But after all force docking can be and not calculate. Then for ball pit and brains you can a free air breathe easier. And here is filled molds to think doctors, let even the most konovalnye konovaly, strongly not recommend. Instead thought a draft usually reprisal.
Song-Trophime d'Arles heard? "Wind in anybody, and I a lovesick. In all girls of our court! "
In life choose need something one thing.
Learn to look more to think. Make friends with sciences. Move your participators, not ball pit, and then many useful in head climbs. Here is how me now.